Tag: Kurt Cobain suicide

Matches: Tom Peterson watch, Cobain’s suicide shirt

Monica Nelson and the Jack London Trio
Monica Nelson (formerly of Obituaries) and the Jack London Trio
Ivan French banner Tom Peterson
Ivan French Facebook banner with Monica featured in profile image (Sept 2022)
Kurt Cobain suicide scene photo - left arm
Kurt Cobain suicide photo (April 1994)

The man’s face on Cobain’s watch, and on Ivan French’s banner above, is Tom Peterson.

Something I notice now, every time I see this image from Cobain’s suicide, is that when Chris was sent home from the hospital in January 2021, after his terminal cancer diagnosis, he arrived wearing a hospital gown with a pattern very similar to Cobain’s suicide shirt. On August 1, 2021, about three months after Chris died I was having such a terrible time with pain in the teeth to either side of the tooth 14 extraction site, I went to an emergency dentist. As I was walking to the dentist’s office from the bus stop, I saw a hospital gown with a pattern identical to the gown Chris had been wearing thrown into a pile of dirt near a highway overpass, along with a bunch of trash including food containers, masks, syringes, and a ripped up copy of Alcoholics Anonymous “Big Book”

August 1, 2021

Compare to this image from Peter Gabriel’s 1987 music video for Big Time

Peter Gabriel - Big Time stuff

See also: Matches: Live Through This (Sept 7 2022)

and A momentary reflection on the narrative and my research to date (Sept 7 2022)

Voodoo Doughnut “magic”

Slogans are “Good things come in pink boxes” and “The magic is in the hole!”

Trés Shannon who started Voodoo Doughnut was playing music in clubs around the same time as Nirvana under the name “Kurtz Project” which I think is, among other things, a play on the name Kurt and the German word for “short” – as in, electrical shorts, or a person who is expected to have a short life.

January 6, 1989 Nirvana opened for Mudhoney at Satyricon.
Kurtz Project played on January 25.

Seattle Squid Row deep dive

It looks like, according to livenirvana.com, the band that would become Nirvana began going by the name Skid Row in 1987. There was another band in New Jersey that called itself Skid Row beginning in 1986. I think that Everett True mentioned Cobain was unaware of this other band and that seems likely to be true, especially back then.

So to recap, first I realized that Burdyshaw’s comment to Everett True about seeing Nirvana open for the Obituaries was false, and then, while trying to fact check this on Pacific Northwest Music Archives Facebook group, I watched Burdyshaw and others wriggle around trying to explain the error even though I wasn’t initially accusing them or Everett True (in this case) of lying – I just said it was likely a mistake and poor fact checking, though based on patterns and the fact that this easily correctable misstatement has been on the Obituaries Wikipedia page for 15 years, I always had doubts about this being a mistake. I also mentioned that these kinds of errors, when they’re not caught and corrected, are consequential because they are then repeated by other writers and false histories are created, and false histories often have negative consequences for real people. And then this other guy, an admin named Matthew Ward came in and shut the whole thing down, profusely thanking Burdyshaw for “clearing up a mystery” – and then after my next couple of posts to the group which I did not expect to be considered particularly controversial, I was deleted and apparently blocked. (One post was an Untouchables poster from 1980 and the other was the post about my family’s links to Jimi Hendrix.)

Of course that makes me think there’s more going on, like – if the statement about Obituaries opening for Nirvana at Squid Row in 1988 was not a mistake but a lie, why this particular lie? I may have accidentally found part of the answer when I explored the New York Times and saw Cobain’s 1994 obituary which featured a photo of Nirvana playing directly underneath the word “Obituaries.” So that likely largely explains the Obituaries part – but what Burdyshaw specifying Squid Row as the venue?

I started to follow that thread, first by looking into the venue itself. It was a hole in the wall dive that went through a lot of different businesses including, according to an 2007 article in The Stranger, Rebellious Jukebox (a record store run by Nils Bernstein 1989-92 – Bernstein later became VP of PR for Sub Pop, then did I think publicity for Matador and now is a New York based editor at Wine Enthusiast magazine described as an “exhaustive traveler” – I feel like he may have been someone I tried to contact in the past, trying to generate interest in a Boo Frog album), Righteous Rags (Jeffrey Ofelt), Squid Row, the Puss Puss Cafe, Tugs Belmont (a gay bar), Bimbo’s, the Cha Cha Lounge, Double Trouble, Lipstick Traces (early 2000s), Manray, Kincora, Bus Stop, and Pony.

I’m going to stop here because clearly this is a rabbit hole and I think the Stranger intends it to be that. In the Stranger article, two anecdotes stand out: a story about someone finding decomposing severed fingers in a crockpot, and a typical type of Courtney Love story.

poster for Sherlock Holmes Woman in Green
The Woman in Green 1945

With regards to the severed fingers, this was a theme in the 1945 hypnosis-themed Sherlock Holmes movie Woman in Green. It symbolizes murdering witnesses or potential witnesses. There’s another thing that it evokes as well which is the severed hand that appears in the Migos video for Stir Fry. The Stir Fry video seems to allude to the 1983 Wah Mee massacre that killed another Seattle club owner, John Loui of the Golden Crown. (It’s increasingly clear that many hip hop videos allude to backroom activities around grunge era Seattle. I believe it’s because the activities, issues, and people I’m writing about here about are so deeply interwoven with entertainment industry, US government, and high finance.) Also – this is worth its own entry – there seems to be something in the Migos Stir Fry video that I would call a smoking gun to tell you that Mark Lanegan, who died of COVID complications on 2/22/2022, was actually biomedically murdered. With regards to Lanegan’s death being a murder, there are actually a few smoking guns. So I will revisit this.

With regards to the Courtney Love story, it is told by (Cha Cha Lounge co-owner) Jeffrey Ofelt and takes place during the Righteous Rags era, probably around 1993. “Courtney Love came in to pick up a coat for Kurt Cobain that she had on layaway and was buying as a Christmas present. It was a leather trench coat or something. She came in to make a payment, and she wanted to use the phone, and she was smoking.” The coat was “a leather trench coat or something”? Was Kurt Cobain – or anyone in the early 1990s – ever seen wearing a leather trench coat? I mean, I’ve been wrong before, but I’m going to go out on a limb and say not.

This whole thing about combining two memories into one? That happens. But in this case, I suspect two garments were combined into one. This is another entry, maybe.

I did not expect things to get this complicated.

Back to Squid Row, specifically. That bar seems to have opened in 1986 (possibly) but really got going with live music in 1987. The only record I have of Chris Newman playing there is for Claudia Gherke’s 28th birthday in 1988, with Snow Bud and the Flower People. I’m thinking this venue might have been a bit small for him during that era, but he would usually play for people he considered friends who asked him to do special events like birthdays. He was even cajoled into reviving Napalm Beach for birthdays years after he swore he’d never play as Napalm Beach again.

This is partly why I’ve focused so hard on Squid Row – because Chris was asked to play first as Napalm Beach at the Vogue for Claudia’s 27th birthday, and this was right before the Vogue started doing Sub Pop Sundays – and then he was asked to play Claudia’s 28th birthday at Squid Row as Snow Bud – and both those times, a Sub Pop super group known as Bundy Creature opened for him. It was like some weird book end.

I did not know (or remember, I suppose I’d read it) that one of the names for Nirvana, in early 1987, was Skid Row. According to livenirvana.com, that name lasted about three months between April and June, and they played around four shows under that name. They played Tacoma’s Community World Theatre on June 12, 1987 as Skid Row but on June 27, 1987 they played the same venue as Pen Cap Chew. June 27 is an important date because June 27, 1988 was the day Bret Bowman was hit by a car, it was the day that Sub Pop Sundays ended, and I know that date was picked out for Bret to be hit at least June 27, 1987, a year ahead of time, because I’d recorded a predictive dream that night. But it’s possible, and I’ll have to look into this more deeply – by June 1987 Kurt Cobain was also already on the creep store murder menu.

Cobain stands out among other musicians because of his willingness to distinguish, from my perspective, right from wrong, with regards to what Chris and I were being put through. Thus, the symbolism of a severed finger (accusation).

With regards to Cobain using the name Skid Row – the history of the term Skid Row is interesting and I didn’t know that a lot of sources trace it directly to Seattle. Basically, in the early days of Pacific Northwest logging, lumberjacks were faced with moving these giant trees out of the forest by pulling them with horses (usually) or oxen. The easiest way to do this was to pull them downhill (obviously) so that’s how they logged – they’d build a flat “road” into the woods, and skid the trees down the road to the mill. The road was called a skid road. Lumber camps or tent cities were built along these roads, and the tent cities were eventually called “skid row.” I think the reason that the name Skid Row is associated with Seattle is because there was a large and maybe famous or semi-permanent skid row area in Seattle back in those days. This links to me. How? Where I grew up, in Humboldt County, we had the same thing going on. I grew up at the edge of a redwood forest that had been logged in the late 1800s and again in the early 1900s and right behind our house in the woods was a skid road. We called it “the old logging road” but it was a skid road. I played in that area a lot as a child and I have reason to believe there was surveillance around our favorite spots – probably wireless cameras attached to trees feeding data to hidden drones. In addition, in the summer of 1986, Bret Bowman and I both worked at the Samoa Cookhouse, an old logging camp cookhouse in Eureka that catered to tourists. He was a dishwasher and I a hostess and I’m sure there was surveillance in there, too.

Also, my assertion is there was always a plan to leave Chris and I impoverished, as others grew wealthy from exploiting us and spreading damaging lies about us. It was no accident that by the late 1990s Chris became homeless, living in “tarp town” San Francisco, a modern skid row. Finally, it’s possible that Nirvana’s temporary band name was a direct nod to the Squid Row tavern, because clearly the Vogue was important with regards to an agenda around Chris, and like I said, 1987-88 were bookended by Chris playing with Sub Pop’s Bundy Creature first at Vogue, and then at Squid Row.

Bars seem to be important with regards to the structure of this surveillance-linked exploitation, probably because they are gathering places, and exchanges of money, goods, or backroom deals can be made without drawing undue attention. And squid are sea creatures known for having large eyes, excellent vision.

Sometime between June 27 and August 9, 1987, according to livenirvana.com, Cobain played a house party in Raymond, Washington called the Green House. Other sources, like Charles’ Cross’ Heavier Than Heaven, say their first show was at a Raymond, Washington house party. on March 7, 1987. So there’s some conflict about what was going on in these early days, but I’m putting all of this here because Cobain killed himself in a greenhouse, because the Seattle police, when they released suicide photos in 2014 filtered all the photos to have a green tinge.

Photos of Cobain suicide scene released by Seattle police are tinged green.

Raymond is a small town, a half hour drive from Aberdeen. According to the Charles Cross biography, the March 7, 1987 show was set up by somene named Ryan Aigner. Cross’ claim that this was Nirvana’s first show conflicts with the information posted on livenirvana.com which has him playing as early as December 1985 as “fecal matter” with Dale Crover on bass and Greg Hokanson on drums. None of this online stuff is sourced, so I don’t know where the information comes from but maybe over time I’ll figure it out. If I were a writer being paid to write a book about Nirvana, I’d definitely want to chase down these leads. I’m guessing this has been addressed somewhere in a more recent book.

I want to also draw attention to this name “Bliss” which shows up briefly as an August 1987 proto-Nirvana band name and say that, like Heck being a name from my family tree, Bliss a name from Chris’ family tree, on his mother’s side. They were descended from the brother of a famous hymn writer named P.P. Bliss who had died along with his wife in a train crash (Ashtabula River railroad disaster).

Squid Row Info Sources:

April 6, 1994 – New York Times front page – clues

Every version of the story told openly is that Kurt Cobain was missing on April 6, 1994, but not in a public way. In reality, he was lying dead in his greenhouse. The story that I “received” (psychically) is that Cobain’s April 5 suicide was captured on surveillance video, and distributed or possibly even trafficked by the FBI/CIA to the usual suspects – journalists, celebrities, political leaders, global financiers, etc.

What newspapers like New York Times do when something like this is either being planned, or has happened (and this includes the 9/11 attacks) is sneak commentary in between the lines. Part of this is achieved with language, part with images, and part is achieved with juxtapositions – what articles appear next to what other articles. Also, as I said in an earlier post, the name of the reporter covering a story is often significant, as in containing a hidden reference to something.

Here is a small corner of the front page of April 6, 1994 New York Times that caught my attention. Cropping a portion of a document in a photo can bring out things you might otherwise miss. (Commentary below image)

April 6, 1994 New York Times front page detail
New York Times, 6 April 1994, p1

In this section of the front page is an article about Serbian attacks on a Muslim town in Bosnia-Herzegovina. Nirvana bassist Krist Novoselić is Croatian. Also, throughout these issues I see what I think are allusions to the impending 9/11 attacks, which were manufactured to seem to be a grudge held by a group of radical Muslims against the US. I’m not saying that the attacks were not that – I’m saying that, like Cobain’s suicide, the entire situation was manufactured by the CIA from start to finish. In other words, yes, Cobain committed suicide, but he was also murdered. Yes, the 9/11 attacks were an attack on the US by a group of radicals, but it was also a type of false flag. In other words, with mind control technology, the human brain itself is hacked, hijacked, and weaponized. Our current legal system doesn’t deal with this, but it needs to, because the human brain is a powerful weapon.

There’s an article that says “Teamsters Strike Stops Activity of Big Haulers” by Catherine S. Manegold. So we have the word “big haul” and the name “Manegold” – not sure what to make of this but it seems like it’s something linked to finance. (Headlines I believe are created by editors, not the reporters.) And then, the article – and this was the beginning of a series of articles – that caught my attention first, was the article about Supreme Court Justice Blackmun retiring. Was Cobain seen as a type of Justice?

The thing that first caught my attention with this article was the sub-heading “Departure Is Unlikely to Alter Ideological Makeup of Bench.” Words that might be significant – departure, alter, makeup, bench. With regards to the word “alter” – there is a potential play on alter/altar and the idea of “alternative.” “Alter” is I believe a trauma-based mind control term for a secondary or alternate personality (I can’t recall where I’ve heard this, but I feel like I’ve heard it a lot) and yesterday it occurred to me that something of this could be implicit in the idea of “alternative” music which was the industry-friendly word for grunge and grunge-adjacent music of the 1990s.

The word “altar” appears at the end of the Cobain suicide note. “Frances, Courtney I’ll be at your altar” – but to me it looks just as much like “I’ll beat your altar.” Deaths are fetishized.

Francis is a person caught in the middle but Courtney was old enough to have agency. I no longer feel much empathy for her. Not after seeing what happened to Chris Newman. And the truth is, she knew this was going to happen to Kurt and to Chris and she actively played a role in bringing it about. She herself does not possess true empathy. I saw her bait and switch Chris with regards to things like she was going to write a book and mention him so he wouldn’t be forgotten. Around 2016 she told him that she remembered he had taught her to play guitar, which, if true, would be a very sweet thing to say in a book, though he didn’t remember teaching her to play guitar. When she did have someone call him about a book, that person only asked Chris about other random people, implying “you don’t really matter, Chris Newman.” Courtney didn’t call him herself. And she never wrote the book she’s been saying she’d write for years. It’s all bait and switch, wash rinse repeat until he’s dead. And then the community fetishes another fresh kill.

I’m sick of it and I sure don’t want to be next on this disgusting menu.

Back to the New York Times – look at who wrote the Judge Blackmun article – Linda Greenhouse.

“I just don’t want you to be shocked – that he’s a Blackmun”

New York Times – what do they know and when do they know it?

As I’ve been writing these posts, I know, due to my, you know, psychic abilities that various entities and individuals are, somehow, somewhere where I can’t see, continuing with or accellerating/snowballing their FBI-facilitated libelous attacks. Dealing with this is a challenge, because I don’t get a lot of detail about what, though often names come to me. Dan Cuneeen. Louis Samora. Tobi Vail. Witchypoo. (It’s Op Anne Boleyn.)

I don’t like saying I’m going to do something and then not doing it, and I said I’d look at the New York Times between Cobain’s suicide and the discovery of his body and I predicted I’d find clues that New York Times writers already knew he was dead and were weighing in behind the scenes. So I did look, and I did see signs of this, but I also realize this is for my purposes, not the most productive way to spend my time. Mostly, I want to make the point that this goes on all the time. And for others who want to see the light, it’s useful to take something like Times Machine after a world-shaking event, especially something that has signs of being mind control linked, and looking back at the lead up, and seeing what you can see. This sort of thing goes back decades.

By way of summary, I was a bit surprised, or at least did not expect to see things that seemed like they might be links to the 9/11 attacks in this time period (4/6-4/9/1994). In retrospect it makes sense, because both the suicide of Cobain and the 9/11 attacks were earth-shaking events in their own way, and both were done with mind control technologies, as part of a larger strategy. I am not going to get into it too much here but one phrase I noticed repeated was “Giuliani’s cuts.” NYC WTC Twin Towers were designed by a Seattle-born Japanese American architect, so there are Seattle links.

Another thing I’ve noticed in news stories is, weird as it seems, names of reporters covering stories are sometimes significant.

April 6 1994 NYT p 1 stocks rebound
April 6, 1994 NYT front page - children played pilot in Aeroflot jet that crashed
New York Times front page, 6 April 1994

April 6, 1994 – Stocks and Serbs surged, children played pilot in Aeroflot jet that crashed.

“Psychic pain”

Script keepers are crypt keepers, and crypt keepers are script keepers.

Those of us who have biomedical implants, like Kurt Cobain did, have abilities that can appear to be psychic. The mind – all parts of the brain – literally wirelessly controlled. That’s how relapses are forced, or people are made fat, or skinny, or even suicidal.

he said really i just wanna dance
good and evil matched perfect it’s a great romance
i can deal with some psychic pain
if it’ll slow down my higher brain
veins full of disappearing ink
vomiting in the kitchen sink
disconnecting from the missing link
this is not my life
it’s just a fond farewell to a friend
it’s not what i’m like
it’s just a fond farewell to a friend
who couldn’t get things right…

Elliott Smith, “Fond Farewell” Basement on A Hill 2004