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Courtney Love, malfeasance, “Big C Mart”

Lately it seems like whatever I dream at night, I don’t remember much of it, but I’m left with an overall impression in the morning. Last night I was woken up a couple of times by Roxy screaming in pain, and I had the strong sense of Courtney Love being behind it, as I did last night and again this morning. This morning the indication was that Courtney Love is a CIA finance gruber (channel) behind much of the malfeasance in Portland’s government – the cars and construction projects. That this is all linked to FBI files that she scripts. Also, that she’s linked to the implanted devices in my mouth (tooth 14, 15). I normally would hesitate to write this stuff without outside evidence to back it up. But I have been writing about her a lot lately, and I have also taken steps to prevent Chris’ legacy from being wiped away and this seems to have led to retaliation.

Backing up for a moment – years ago, before I knew anything about any of this, I was interested in the music of Courtney Love and Hole. At that time I was going out with this honeytrap named Tom Harrison who I now think almost certainly was linked to her. I remember me saying something about being interested in her work at one point and he responded that he thought I was “obsessed” with her. That struck me as odd. I didn’t think my interest in her as an artist was anything close to obsession. This would have been around 2004 or 2005.

By the way? In spring 2005, the night before one of my cats, Princess, was found dead in a driveway – something that was both a twin event and had also been “predicted” in a dream – Tom and I had been watching The People Vs Larry Flint a movie starring Courtney Love.

I’ve had dreams more recently indicating that all this abuse and killing of pets is Nazi-origin stuff linked to the CIA.

Shortly after Chris died in May 2021, I received a series of anonymous comments on my YouTube channel by a user called “zille1313.” This user obviously had some kind of inside scoop because Chris often used 13 or 1313 in his passwords, and he died at exactly 11:33pm. The user claimed to be a male fan and acquaintance of Chris going back more than 30 years, and challenged me to guess who “he” was. I interacted with this person a little bit, then stopped. The person later deleted their account and all associated comments – I had made a screenshot of the account, but not the comments. Note that the person was following an account called “Huff Paranormal” – my Seattle based grandmother, nurse Helen Meyer’s maiden name was Huff. The account was also following Sam Henry as a topic – Sam was diagnosed with stomach cancer a few months later and died I believe the same month he was diagnosed.

I think I should do a post on the number 13 and what it meant to Chris (and me) versus what it means to probably everyone else.

Courtney Love – Mono – 2005

This account though has all kinds of indications that they are death linked. DiEM25 probably is pointed at me being as my initials are EM and my account is right next to it. The Criterion Collection “C” next to Sam Henry is linked to number 3 and almost certainly stands for “cancer” – and if you watch Courtney Love’s video for “Mono” she and her squad take over the “Big C Mart.”

Who was Zille1313? I don’t know. I have the ability, under certain conditions to receive information telepathically (so does Courtney and a number of other people). It’s not the same as being psychic. It’s more like radio transmission/receiving, and it’s not ever really that weird. It’s totally explainable scientifically and only “strange” because it’s been covered up so persistently.

It was clear that Zille1313 had a fair amount of information about Chris’ background. One thing I’ve felt the whole time is that Zille1313 was not male, as they claimed, but female. My strongest suspicion was that it was Valarie, especially at the end when the person wrote something about my “obsession” with Chris’ ex-wife Valarie, then wrote “I get it” – as if – the person understood why I would be “obsessed” with Valarie. This was just false. Considering how persistent Valarie was in communicating with (and lying to) Chris I probably didn’t think about her enough. Because of that last comment, I figured that this person was Valarie – especially later on when I saw that Valarie was also using the number 13, for example, in her email accounts.

With regards to “The Big C” – Valarie’s father had died of cancer. When he was diagnosed around 2010, Valarie told Chris about it, saying her father called cancer “The Big C.” The phrase “The Big C” also relates to – and may originate from – a literal “big C” in the hills over UC Berkeley (Cal). This literal Big C goes back to the early 1900s, and in fact there are a number of reasons to suspect that UC Berkeley is among the academic institutions linked to covert assassinations and malfeasance going back to their earliest days. (Rush Dolson, electrical engineer, class of 1910.)

I probably mentioned before that when Valarie and Chris were living on the streets of San Francisco, Valarie would dumpster dive for fabric and clothes, her hair dyed pink, teeth missing – the SF police nicknamed her “Courtney.”

How Courtney Love writes songs

I increasingly think that Courtney Love writes songs in an intentionally deceptive manner, and that this is especially true of everything she’s done since, and including, Live Through This. The reason is that she’s hiding her involvement with some massive crimes, including the murder of Kurt Cobain and the murder of Chris Newman, and of course, she’s now after me and my daughter.

Courtney constructs elaborate scenes to in which you can drown. She makes you think she’s talking about something, or to someone, when she’s actually talking to someone else, or about something else. She uses a lot of vague “he, she, you” where it’s difficult if not impossible to figure out who she’s talking about. Maybe if you have specialized inside knowledge you can figure it out – I usually can’t figure it out – or I figure it wrong.

I have said that Courtney Love was a honeytrap. As far as I know, Chris Newman was the first person she tried to honeytrap. She was, at the time, only sixteen, so I imagine she had been put up to it, at least in part by her father, who is the person who provided her with the LSD that she came equipped with. He in turn was likely working with another entity which was probably CIA and music business. She later honeytrapped Kurt Cobain.

When I ran into the Hole song “Honey” I didn’t know anything about honeytraps outside of maybe seeing a very superficial version of attempted honeytrapping in James Bond movies. It wasn’t something I would expect would happen to me or anyone around me. In any case, I listened to the album Nobody’s Daughter when it came out in 2010, a year after Chris and I got together, and then moved on – but later, after I began to see the parallel patterns between Nirvana and Napalm Beach, specifically Cobain’s adaptation of Chris’ early 1980s equipment set up and also the way the bands seemed to follow each other’s live performances in Europe (a pattern that I now see also happened in Seattle and Portland) – I started to look more closely at a lot of things, like Cobain’s lyrics “I’m a liar and a thief,” for example – and I started to see evidence that Cobain was extremely troubled by the way that Chris was being cheated, stolen from, and lied to.

Once Chris and I got together, and as we began to recover Chris’ catalog, and especially as Chris worked toward freeing himself from heroin addiction, Courtney Love no doubt knew that one or both of us would eventually detect this pattern, and that it could result in legal actions involving Nirvana.

I’m not sure how long the whole scenario had been planned out, but it seems like Courtney Love had been laying the groundwork for a profound deception going back years. She had Chris believing that she had a huge teenage crush on him, that she wanted him to be “her first” lover. She had written him letters from Europe. She had told him at a party, in front of a number of people “I would have married you Chris Newman!” And after appearing on the cover of Rolling Stone, she greeted him from onstage at La Luna. So Chris had no reason to suspect she held any ill will toward him.

Anyway, after discovering this bizarre pattern with Nirvana and Napalm Beach, I ran into a video of Courtney performing this song “Honey” live on the radio, and I felt that it was a “message to Chris.” What I really felt was that she was drawing a parallel in the song between Kurt Cobain and Chris Newman, and assumed that if Cobain had been troubled by the situation around Chris, she too would have been troubled by it, being as she seemed to care about Chris. And that the reason she didn’t reach out to Chris was because she and everyone was being prevented from speaking freely, or associating freely with Chris and me.

I thought these things because I was missing some key pieces of information.

The first key bit of information I was missing was that Courtney was not an innocent teenager who wandered randomly into a scene and somehow ended up living in the Napalm Beach band house. Courtney Love was actually a honeytrap, both with Newman and Cobain. That fact alone changes everything, especially if you also accept the idea that Courtney Love’s job was to destroy both Cobain and Newman. And that is what I think the truth is.

Once again, at age sixteen, she may not have had full agency – but she continued to make choices along the same lines.

Courtney Love is not just a honey trap but she seems to be a manipulator or “gruber” of finance, meaning she moves money around to get things done, including assassinations. This is achieved by concocting fake files with the FBI and CIA.

The song “honey” was itself a trap.

What happened to Courtney Love’s twitter account?

Remember when celebrity twitters were newsworthy? When a single Kanye tweet created fodder for multiple articles?

Does no one but me notice how weird Courtney Love’s Twitter account became last May?

On May 10 I saw that her account design had been changed to a photo of a man in a blue shirt with Babe the Blue Ox on it, and the words “HEY BABE” holding a monster, tornado looking carrot. There was a pinned tweet from May 5 that was nothing but a carrot emoji, and she was no longer following anyone and at first I couldn’t see any tweets, though it said she had 5577 tweets. So I thought her account had been hacked.

It’s now more than four months later and the only thing I can see that has changed is the total number of tweets is 5555. So the carrot tweet appeared on 5/5/22 and the total tweets are 5555.

If you look on the Wayback Machine, the last capture was on March 25, 2022. The view I have doesn’t show the number of tweets in March 2022, but if you look at what’s left on her twitter feed, the most recent original tweet showing is dated May 28, 2013 – nine years ago. The tweet reads “Will you people lay off on giving this girl such grief? Shes a beautiful talented young woman, we all go through our ups and downs. grow up!” – from the replies, it seems to be about Amanda Bynes.

Courtney Love tweet 5/28/13 - Will you people lay off on giving this girl such grief? Shes a beautiful talented young woman, we all go through our ups and downs. grow up!

This is what her twitter looked like in March 2022

Courtney Love twitter March 2022

It seems like her account was hacked, but she hasn’t bothered to restart it. It’s possible she did this herself, making it look like her account was hacked, because she thought there might be tweets she needed to delete.

In January 2014 I was watching a lot of Twitter accounts of people linked to the Portland, Seattle, and Olympia music scenes. I’ve talked about some of the giveaways seen, for example in Tobi Vail’s tweets, and in Tad Doyle’s tweets. They never bothered to delete these tweets.

20 January 2014 tweet by Tobi Vail "Laughing in the face of love"
20 January 2014 tweet by Tobi Vail
December 5 2013 tweet by Tad Doyle reads Everyone can be boyght and has their own price threshold. Mind just happens to be pizza with extra cheese and mushrooms.
5 December 2013 tweet by Tad Doyle

Looking at Tobi’s tweet now, it looks like not just a John Lennon or Karma CafĂ© reference, but a Courtney Love reference. There was money everywhere and now, if I go back to Courtney’s twitter from the months leading up to, and right after this event, I can see that she was busy traveling everywhere, meeting with lots of people. Among the places she was, was Las Vegas, and this was also true of Sub Pop who had a convention in Las Vegas, December 2013. There were similar patterns with Mudhoney and K Records who according to a record store employee’s tweet, all showed up (but somehow, separately) in at the same record store in Nashville in November 2013.

I’ve recently looked at Courtney’s tweets around the time of the abduction event via the Wayback Machine and it’s clear that some were deleted before the site was archived. In particular, I recall seeing a tweet appear either on January 25 or 26, 2014 in which Courtney was posing in what looked like a hospital bed with a turtle on her head. (A toy turtle I think.) I found that puzzling, but on the 27th I was abducted and held in a hospital. That tweet is gone. There was another tweet that had been posted earlier that I remember writing an email to Everett True, asking him what he thought it was about, and he said something along the lines of “it’s well known that Courtney and I don’t get along and I can’t be expected to know…” (whatever I was asking him) – that email is now missing, possibly the tweet as well.

What was the turtle about?

It does very much look to me like Courtney had a big hand in setting this scenario up. A question I have been unable to answer is how my mom and Julie Brusca became involved. I suspect that Julie was working with her kids on this. I have reason to believe it was planned out ahead of time to put me into a situation where I would reach out to the Brusca family for help, and that is how the trap was set.

Like Courtney Love, Tony Brusca seems to operate on behalf of the recording industry.

Courtney Love twitter banner 2014

Playing the victim

Sometimes there are “gotcha” moments, but more often, seeing the outlines of the crime is largely about seeing patterns. One of the primary patterns I see is “playing the victim.” This works well when you’ve weaponized and exploited women, children, and Indigenous and black people, as has been done. To be a butterfly is to be exploited. Being exploited makes a person angry. Butterflies are angry, but what I see is they misdirect their anger, probably because it benefits them socially, professionally, and financially. Misdirected revenge becomes a way of life. Also, there is a cultivated culture that elevates deception and opportunism. You are seen as masterful if you can pull the wool over someone’s eyes and take them for all they’ve got, or set wolves after them. Think Harley Quinn.

A huge power move I’ve seen pulled by just about every deceiver in this scenario is playing the victim, and fingering an innocent party as the perpetrator. This is considered a tactic of deception, a legitimate power move.

In those cases where they don’t want to lie directly, they use the power of implication. They don’t say exactly what happened or who was responsible – they let you believe that someone did something – draw your own conclusions and so forth.

I don’t want anything bad to happen to my daughter’s father, but I am aware that in the 1990s he unfairly painted me as unfaithful, or possibly unfaithful. When I was pregnant with our daughter he acted like he didn’t think he was the father, which was completely insane. I’d never given him any reason to think that I’d been unfaithful, and I hadn’t been. I now see that this is part of a bigger pattern. The script came from elsewhere.

Chris’ second wife Denise acted like she thought Chris was being unfaithful because when he was left alone for months at a time he spent time with his ex-wife Valarie, who wouldn’t leave him alone, and/or relapsed on heroin. Chris was never unfaithful to Denise, though she was unfaithful to him, in that she married him fraudulently. She also continually tried to lure him back, even though she really didn’t want him.

Valarie wrote to Chris while he was sick and dying of cancer, “playfully” calling him “pimp daddy” – as if he had pimped her out. Valarie’s life as a prostitute was her doing, not Chris. She dragged Chris into the heroin lifestyle and she dragged him onto the streets. Am I saying Valarie was never exploited? No, I am not saying that. I’m saying Chris did not exploit her. But she never let him forget about their lives in the gutter.

Shortly before Chris died, his sister Becky texted “I forgive you big brother!” – for what, exactly?

I’m not saying that in their time together, Chris had never done anything to hurt Becky – I’m saying that in the entire twelve years I lived with Chris, Becky had never once indicated that she was holding some kind of grudge against him that she’d need to forgive him for, just before his death. To be honest, I think she’s the one who should be asking forgiveness.

I’ve just been reading through Courtney Love’s old tweets. She’s been doing the same thing, indirectly. One of the things she keeps alluding to is being exploited and/or raped in some kind of entertainment industry context – but she has never come out and said what that was. I’ve told the story that Chris told me as completely as I know it, and it is a story of exploitation – but not by Chris. Courtney was a teenager, and she tried to trick Chris into having sex with her. This doesn’t make her “guilty” – but I think that she should come out and say what really happened, and who, EXACTLY was behind it. Stop with the cryptic bullshit.

The Courtney Love problem (butterflies and medical murders)

The Courtney Love problem extends beyond the trap she willingly walked into by fraudulently marrying Kurt Cobain. I say that it was a fraudulent marriage because she was a honey trap who’s job it was to destroy him, just as Chris’ wives were put in place to destroy him. I’m sure there was a cover story about them “taking care” of him (so he could be more easily defrauded out of all his creative works) – but that’s nothing but sugar coating. Dirt and sticks over a booby trap.

The problem is that she also has the FBI and CIA in a bind. The nature of the crime is mutual imprisonment. If Courtney were to testify truthfully under oath about her role, it would likely have a catastrophic effect on the Department of Justice – an effect that I think needs to happen – otherwise nothing will change – but of course they’d rather pretend everything is just fine as it is, and money and murder fixes everything. This is a DELUSION.

Courtney Love has the goods on the butterfly system. I suppose this is not a system the FBI and CIA want to admit they’ve been involved in (especially, I imagine, the FBI). Courtney Love has the goods on the reporting/informant system, the abuse, the medical murders. Perhaps on this account the Justice Department and CIA feel obligated to support her no matter how heinous her crimes.

Also, Courtney is obviously really good at deception, double speaking, and just flat out lies.

I was not the first person she deceived but I hope to be the last.

Crimes vs Torts and the Nature of this Racket

In this situation, I reached out numerous times to law enforcement, telling them our lives were in danger. In fact, they knew our lives were in danger. It’s like – that was kind of the point?

As I’ve dealt with blow after blow it’s become really clear that the blows that have been dealt to us come from a very informed place, legally. They seem to know exactly how to get away with the crimes they are committing.

What makes it especially difficult is the systematic use of psychological and technological mind control and the weaponization of our own family members against us, not to mention the weaponization of systems designed to protect us, like police and hospitals.

I need to process this a bit more before I can write about it more thoroughly. But I think that in the long run – should any judges or attorneys or anyone who believes in right vs wrong look at this situation – the strategic use of crime and weaponization of government entities should NOT be a get out of jail free card for anyone – similarly – their knowledge and exploitation of civil procedure technicalities should not permit them to get away with heinous crimes such as first degree aggravated murder.

I cannot file a wrongful death claim because Chris and I weren’t married, and Chris and I weren’t married because of deliberate manipulations by friends, family members, police, and hospital systems. His mother would have had a potential case, but she was murdered with a stroke (frequency-based attack) right before Chris was diagnosed.

Chris’ cancer should have been detected in June 2019, when abnormalities were seen on tests at Providence Hospital and further testing was recommended but never done. Instead the diagnosis didn’t happen until January 2021, two weeks after Chris’ mother suddenly died. The diagnosis happened after Chris had been attacked for several days on end with directed energy weapons, always at night – and developed a painful infection.

The reality is, this wasn’t really a tort, it was a crime. Chris and his mother were murdered, strategically and brutally. The attackers, wielding high tech weaponry, knew what they could get away with it, and how to pull it off. It was two first-degree murders by either the US Department of Justice, the CIA, or more likely, both together. There is no excuse.

Right before Chris died, police were called for a welfare check (due to defamation) and stole his wallet. I’m not sure what the point was behind that – maybe so that I couldn’t access the small amount of money he had, with anticipation that his will would be contested (as the family alleged they were going to do), or just to make things difficult. (Microaggressions)

If I did manage to make a claim about Chris, they’ll bring up his failure to make money, which was due to lifelong blacklisting. The situation is unique in that he was a very poor person who was stolen from his entire life by VERY rich people, and corporations, facilitated by the US government. How do you handle that legally?

The parallels between Chris’ bands and Nirvana are not insignificant.

These powerful financial interests should not get away with these heinous crimes because they’ve managed to infiltrate and co-opt the justice system, and hire the best lawyers while preventing us from having any income, any mobility, and any access to a lawyer. I should have been able to access advice from a lawyer the first time I tried in January 2014 when Chris was ALIVE.

By the way, there is evidence Courtney Love was behind, or involved in the January 2014 kidnapping set up.