Category: murder

Regarding the number 13

Number 13 is the Death card in the Tarot deck, and I think to most people, this is the meaning of 13. However, you don’t hear this explicitly discussed much if at all. The numerology around this situation seems to be widely known and covered up. The numerology and other related symbols are seen in seals, including the US seal which seems to “obsess” over the number 13 and linked numbers (like 76).

US seal front (showing eagle) and reverse (showing pyramid with floating eye)
US seal features 13 stripes, 13 stars, 13 arrows
1700s Tarot card 13

Chris found himself attracted to the numbers 11 and 13. He died at exactly 11:33pm, and that was neither magic nor coincidence – it was because he was murdered in an occult manner. He was 56 (5+6=11) years old when we got together and 67 when he died (6+7=13). He told me that he was attracted to the numbers 11 and 13 because they came up so often in his life. I later saw that this was true. It’s not surprising.

Chris also tended to like spooky stuff – but it was not because he was evil or into black magic or anything like that. Quite the opposite – Chris not only wasn’t into the occult, but he seemed to be unable to identify others who were into it. When I figured out that the Rider Waite Tarot deck could be used as a way to decode some of the numerology being used around us he wanted nothing to do with it. He didn’t even want to know about it. It’s tempting to explain this psychologically when it was more likely a visceral reaction brought on by mind control technology. He explained it by saying that his religious upbringing eschewed everything Tarot related as the work of the devil – but that explanation doesn’t really jive with his generally open minded approach to life. Clearly, the idea of looking closely at the Tarot was triggering to him. What is less clear is why it was triggering. If I had to guess, I’d say it was direct frequencies to the brain. And I’d say that’s why Chris never could see the bigger picture around him – direct frequencies to his brain.

What I find even more intriguing is what Chris thought the number 13 meant – because in fact I thought the exact same thing. We both thought that 13 was code for “marijuana” – because M is the 13th letter of the alphabet. In his song “Bong Hit” (written late 1985) Chris sings “13 is my bag” – and by that he meant a bag of marijuana. No hidden meanings relating to captivity or death were intended.

Chris didn’t know why he thought 13 was code for marijuana but I know why I did. My dad (like Chris) had been into 1960s underground publications, and had kept some of these stashed around our home when I was growing up. There was an old foot locker (black and white checkerboard design on the outside) that I opened up one day and it was full of all these old newspapers and zines. There were various issues of the Berkeley Barb from about 1967-1970, and a few copies of the LA Free Press and even a couple copies of the Village Voice all going back to the late 1960s, maybe up to 1970 or 71. I read all of this stuff cover to cover. There were advertisements in these publications and one advertisement in particular was for a t-shirt with a character that looked like the illustration from zig zag rolling papers, along with the number 13. I remember staring at this illustration and thinking – “why 13?” – then figuring out that M was the 13th letter of the alphabet, and since zig zag papers back then were usually associated with marijuana, I decided that 13 must be code for marijuana. This would have been around 1982, me reading a newspaper from the late 1960s.

I will say that I’ve never run into anyone else that I know of who had that idea – that number 13 was code for marijuana – until I met Chris.

Was “13” ever code for marijuana? I have no idea.

I suspect that the advertisement I was looking at in those underground papers actually had a different agenda. That in fact the 13 always meant death – and that in this case, death was being associated with the idea of a “zig zag” – going back and forth, up and down – in other words, not really progressing. It’s similar to the idea of a spinning disc or a spiral (groovy!). And maybe along with this was this idea that a person could be sabotaged by being introduced to marijuana (which was seen as a gateway drug, etc). The idea was to keep us (Chris and me) in place long enough to kill us with frequency-based technology which has been in use as a cancer/murder weapon for over 100 years now. That this is a financially sponsored activity, which the CIA was behind.

I’ve said before, I think that 1960s drug culture was invented – and it definitely was exploited – by the occult-linked CIA.


Crimes vs Torts and the Nature of this Racket

In this situation, I reached out numerous times to law enforcement, telling them our lives were in danger. In fact, they knew our lives were in danger. It’s like – that was kind of the point?

As I’ve dealt with blow after blow it’s become really clear that the blows that have been dealt to us come from a very informed place, legally. They seem to know exactly how to get away with the crimes they are committing.

What makes it especially difficult is the systematic use of psychological and technological mind control and the weaponization of our own family members against us, not to mention the weaponization of systems designed to protect us, like police and hospitals.

I need to process this a bit more before I can write about it more thoroughly. But I think that in the long run – should any judges or attorneys or anyone who believes in right vs wrong look at this situation – the strategic use of crime and weaponization of government entities should NOT be a get out of jail free card for anyone – similarly – their knowledge and exploitation of civil procedure technicalities should not permit them to get away with heinous crimes such as first degree aggravated murder.

I cannot file a wrongful death claim because Chris and I weren’t married, and Chris and I weren’t married because of deliberate manipulations by friends, family members, police, and hospital systems. His mother would have had a potential case, but she was murdered with a stroke (frequency-based attack) right before Chris was diagnosed.

Chris’ cancer should have been detected in June 2019, when abnormalities were seen on tests at Providence Hospital and further testing was recommended but never done. Instead the diagnosis didn’t happen until January 2021, two weeks after Chris’ mother suddenly died. The diagnosis happened after Chris had been attacked for several days on end with directed energy weapons, always at night – and developed a painful infection.

The reality is, this wasn’t really a tort, it was a crime. Chris and his mother were murdered, strategically and brutally. The attackers, wielding high tech weaponry, knew what they could get away with it, and how to pull it off. It was two first-degree murders by either the US Department of Justice, the CIA, or more likely, both together. There is no excuse.

Right before Chris died, police were called for a welfare check (due to defamation) and stole his wallet. I’m not sure what the point was behind that – maybe so that I couldn’t access the small amount of money he had, with anticipation that his will would be contested (as the family alleged they were going to do), or just to make things difficult. (Microaggressions)

If I did manage to make a claim about Chris, they’ll bring up his failure to make money, which was due to lifelong blacklisting. The situation is unique in that he was a very poor person who was stolen from his entire life by VERY rich people, and corporations, facilitated by the US government. How do you handle that legally?

The parallels between Chris’ bands and Nirvana are not insignificant.

These powerful financial interests should not get away with these heinous crimes because they’ve managed to infiltrate and co-opt the justice system, and hire the best lawyers while preventing us from having any income, any mobility, and any access to a lawyer. I should have been able to access advice from a lawyer the first time I tried in January 2014 when Chris was ALIVE.

By the way, there is evidence Courtney Love was behind, or involved in the January 2014 kidnapping set up.

Mysteries that could potentially be cleared up with access to Chris’ stolen materials

I’ve shown how some of my journal entries seem to have made it into popular songs including Soundgarden’s “Black Hole Sun,” Smashing Pumpkins “Bullet With Butterfly Wings,” and Nirvana’s “Sappy,” but in fact there are many more instances. In some cases there are incidents that happened that may not have had associated journal entries, or it’s just a phrase taken from my journals, so that it’s harder to make the case. This would include Hole’s “Asking For It,” and Nirvana’s songs “Very Ape,” “Pennyroyal Tea,” and “Something In The Way” (this is just off the top of my head). With regards to Chris, there are links to Nirvana’s “Very Ape” and to “Heart Shaped Box.” And then there are things like Leonard Cohen’s “Famous Blue Raincoat” which doesn’t reference a journal entry, but is pretty clearly a reference to a photo that was stored in an album along with a lock of my hair. What do you do with that? I don’t know because I’m not a lawyer and so far, lawyers are all afraid to touch this.

There are things I know, but cannot prove, like John Lennon putting a lick of mine into the beginning of the song “Woman” – it’s the suspended riff used in the intro, behind the phrase “for the other half of the sky.” Even though I was a child, I was already playing guitar and I played this suspended lick over and over and over. It’s not that this is actionable in court or that I would want to take it to court, but that it’s like a hidden message. That said, looking at what’s happened to us, I think that some of the more obvious stuff should be under consideration for court cases.

Chris played a lot more guitar than I did over the years, performed and recorded, and his style was copied in a lot of ways, including, I would say, in the theme song of “Magnum P.I.” (possibly a sources of the Zoolander joke about “magnum”). But that’s just style – people copy styles all the time. The reason I bring it up is because the same people profiting from the copying Chris’ style will turn around and say Chris as an artist wasn’t worth a damn.

I’ll note here that I’ve seen hints that the guitar player for The Carpenters took inspiration from Chris’ guitar playing. This would have been in the early 1970s.

Music-wise, the feel of Nirvana’s “Lithium” seems to have been inspired by Chris’ song Pugsley, and this is repeated again in PJ Harvey’s “Meet Ze Monsta.” And if I could access Chris’ archival materials – journals and tapes and that sort of thing, I suspect I’d find a lot more. So the thefts that have happened over the years were just not property thefts, as well as intellectual property thefts, but evidence tampering. This idea that all this crime can somehow be justified with libelous stories collected and distributed by the FBI is beyond absurd. Theft is theft and libel is libel and the repeated pattern is of crimes (theft, libel, medical malfeasance, kidnapping, assassination) committed specifically in order to cover up other crimes (theft, sex trafficking, child trafficking, medical trafficking, nonconsensual human subjects research, malfeasance, graft, murder) along with various other tactics and techniques like control of focus. The depravity of all of this, not to mention the criminality, senseless waste, and stupidity, is honestly, for me, almost beyond comprehension. I think anyone in my position would want to see the perpetrators of this collection of crimes, regardless of who they are, held accountable under the criminal statutes of this nation, same as they themselves do to others. They should not be permitted to kidnap and murder their way out of everything.

With regards to intellectual property theft, a lot would probably be cleared up by access to what must be mountains of stolen journals and other creative materials from Chris’ lifetime. In some cases, Chris was performing songs for years before recording them. Someone recently uploaded a bootleg to YouTube of a Napalm Beach performance from New Years Eve 1985 at Satyricon in which they perform a song called My Master Calls, a song that would not be recorded until 1993’s Curiosities, eight years later. At first I thought that the performance couldn’t have been from 1985 because of the presence of that song, but it later became clear that for whatever reason, the song had not been recorded in the studio until years later. In addition, there seem to be songs that show up on live recordings and bootlegs that were never recorded including in 1982, “Into The Sky” (among the inspirations for Nirvana’s 1993 song “Very Ape”) and a 1986 performance of a song called “Mercury” that was uploaded by Mike Lastra. Chris for whatever reason was ambivalent about both these songs, though I think both of them are good songs. (In the case of “Into The Sky,” Chris said, ironically, that “They didn’t seem to like it in Seattle.”)

When I met Chris in 2009 he either had never heard the 1994 Mazzy Star song “Fade Into You” or he had just recently heard it for the first time. Something I noticed, that he never mentioned to me, was the similarity between the Mazzy Star song and his song Crippled Mind. I don’t know when Chris wrote Crippled Mind, and I didn’t think to ask, because this was before I knew anything about surveillance or intellectual property thefts – I’d seen things I thought were weird coincidences. He recorded Stoned and Alone in 1996 under what seems like almost desperate circumstances. Now of course I wonder how long he was playing the “Crippled Mind” chord progression at home or in performances, unaware he was under this kind of surveillance. But he wrote his lyrics in his journals, and that is one reason the journals are important to unravelling mysteries like this.

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Backlash – June 1989

“Welcome to Nirvana’s Nightmare”

In a recent entry, as an afterthought, I published a photo from the a copy of Backlash. And then it occurred to me that there is more to see here.

Backlash was a rock-oriented Seattle paper published between 1987 and 1991. According to their Facebook page “Dawn Anderson also published Backfire, 1983-84, and another zine called Backfire in 1997-2003.”

Several years ago, we were gifted an original copy of the June 1989 Backlash. It is yet another possession that seems to have vanished. However, I still had some scans hidden away in nooks and crannies, somehow avoiding the (FBI) wiping machine. I guess now is as good a time as any to publish them – I’m publishing here everything I have left. This copy of Backlash was supposed to be focused entirely on Oregon music, and I think that aside from paid advertisements, the Oregon focus was maintained throughout most of the magazine, with the exception of an review of Nirvana’s first album, Bleach. I noticed this anomaly from the beginning, but now I’m beginning to wonder if there’s something meaningful behind it. Look at which band is on the cover.

“At this point in time, Simon wanted me to mention that all old Napalm Beach bass players move to Seattle and get married.”

To recap – I am alleging that both Kurt Cobain and Chris Newman were murdered via a system of malfeasance that includes set ups, lies, secret FBI files, and biomedical implants used to manipulate behaviors and create diseases including chronic diseases like chronic pain (Kurt) and asthma (Chris) and terminal diseases like cancer as well as terminal behaviors like suicide. And I’m also alleging that these murders are planned out long ahead of time. So therefore, one has to consider whether the choice to put The Obituaries on the newspaper cover was influenced in some way by these advance plans. The tricky thing about this, is the biomedical implants can be used to make people appear to do something deliberate that isn’t deliberate at all – but I suspect putting the Obituaries on the cover was a deliberate death reference. I suspect Dawn Anderson among others knew there was a plan to murder both Chris Newman and Kurt Cobain via the filing of false and defamatory reports to the FBI.

I have never met Backlash editor/publisher Dawn Anderson. My statements are entirely based on observations of patterns and in this case, inductive reasoning. In other words, I’m not just talking about this one edition of this one paper. I’m saying there seems to have been a pattern of implied threats around Kurt Cobain that (unlike Chris) he would have picked up on. I have thoughts and ideas about why this would be going on – basically, at this point I think the issue was something like the following

  1. Chris Newman was already marked by this community and others for destruction and death.
  2. Kurt Cobain knew this, and was against it. This is clear to me from his lyrics.
  3. Kurt Cobain was picked out at some point for rock stardom, where his rise would parallel Chris’ fall. I don’t know if he knew this or not, but I suspect at some point he did.
  4. Kurt Cobain was also marked out for death, but I don’t know when this happened, or what the reasoning was. (Usually there’s something you’re supposed to think, and hidden behind that, the actual reason.)

Likely the plans for murdering these two artists were mostly about control and profiteering – continuing a very destructive and profitable crime. To this end, finance was coming in from around the world. Sub Pop (as well as K Records) seems to have had a particular link to the UK record business.

Back To Black

The Amy Winehouse song “Back To Black” is pretty clearly about a man who is cheating, but the video shows images of a funeral and cemetery. I think the mound next to the grave was intended to evoke the 1973 press photo of Chris’ first working band, Bodhi. When Back To Black came out in 2006, Chris was married, but in a long distance relationship with his wife Denise. Meanwhile, Chris’ ex-wife Valarie never left him alone, and he continued to struggle to stay off of heroin. I am confident Chris didn’t cheat while married to Denise, but Denise acted insanely jealous, didn’t want him anywhere near Valarie, and took Chris’ relapses incredibly personally. I think Denise – a honeytrap – was among those creating a nasty record with the FBI, on purpose, in order to murder Chris. Meanwhile, Chris was trauma-bonded to Denise and never completely able to release himself from the fantasy she created for him. This situation that Chris, me, and now my innocent daughter are in, is about leveraging financed abuse into more and more abuse and ultimately murder, and it’s all done for GREED.

Amy Winehouse was almost certainly murdered as well. A so-called “27 club” casualty.

He breathed music

Chris' telecaster headstock
Chris had a special way of winding strings

There are so many things that I want to remember about Chris. I’d have been inclined to write and write over the past several months, but have been unable to do so because of the kind of physical duress I’ve been forced to live under, and just trying to survive. It’s these little things that are treasured memories about a person that you might forget. Because I’ve written journals going back to 1979, and regularly since the early 1980s – I know what it is like to find a memory that you may not have realized was important when you wrote it down – then you forget it – then you find it in a journal, and you remember remembering it, and realize it was important or meaningful, even if just personally to you.

Our last eight years together were pretty much horrible, and that is because of circumstances forced upon us by others. As I process all of this, I cannot escape the fact that any number of individuals whom he trusted could have given him a clue about the danger we were in, and how to find his way out. And they didn’t. When I asked them directly, they usually turned around and told Chris I was crazy. I’m very grateful to Chris that he stood by me the whole time, even though all these forces were working against us. I’m very sad that Chris was ultimately unable to see the bigger situation around him. I’m very sorry no one else stepped up to help him see it.

There are so many things about Chris that I loved or found endearing or just special. I feel like he was surrounded by muck and people who either willfully misunderstood him or deliberately misrepresented him. For example – one day when Chris was eating unhealthy food and I was suggesting an alternative I remember someone saying to me “he likes what he likes,” as if I shouldn’t bother. But that real truth was, something I noticed early on, is Chris was very suggestible. In other words, he was prone to influence, even as an older adult. From my perspective at the time, that was a good thing, because it meant that a good influence would help lift him up. But of course it was a double edged sword.

Another early thing I noticed about Chris is that when he listened to music, his breathing would change. I’ve never known anyone else like this – as soon as he began to listen to music, he’d begin to breathe deeper, slower breaths. To me it seemed like he was breathing music.

When he was sick with cancer, he wanted to record a last album, but as soon as he started to feel well enough to do that, he was brutally attacked with directed energy weapons. This is one of many hints that music industry interests were behind his torture and murder. Probably the last thing he played on guitar was a wrenchingly beautiful version of Hendrix’s “Electric Ladyland.” I thought it was so much more beautiful than the version on Hendrix’s album because he was playing it simple, sparse, dripping with soul. We started talking about recording again. But then that very night the torture started again and didn’t stop until he died.

Chris was so proud of his collections of guitars, books, DVDs, and effects pedals. He said that because he lived on the streets, or addicted to drugs and without a permanent residence for so long, it was meaningful to him to be able to have and be able to keep these things.

I’ve only been able to keep a few of Chris’ things, one of which is the guitar he had when we got together, a black Mexican Telecaster. I picked it up recently and of course it still has his strings on it, and it made me remember another thing about him, which is how he wound strings. He tended to wind them just once or twice around the pegs, and then he’d leave the ends long. This is the tiniest thing but it is something that makes me remember him. When I look at the strings wrapped around the pegs I see Chris. These are the strings he put on this guitar, and one day I’ll replace them, and if I don’t write down how he wound strings maybe I’ll forget.